Sadness

There's sadness in my heart for the things going on at work right now. We've completed our final move and our current space is now a fraction of what it was. We're left now with telecommuting employees and split offices. I still have a job, which I'm thankful for, but the changes that have taken place have left me drained and achy from all the work involved and now sad as I ponder what all this really means.

I knew it was coming, this was no surprise but it doesn't make it all any easier to deal with. I feel like I'm grieving a loved one.

I had a good cry at the office today, found an empty office, closed the door and wept. May sound silly and all the changes may be just "business" to some but it's "personal" to many.

The women that I've grown so close to over the past years I will no longer see every day. We've shared tears, laughter, prayers, rants and raves. We've battled life together and now our normal is not anymore.

This change has been painful and I don't like it but it's where I am right now.

The Lord often speaks to me through music, this song has been much comfort to me lately.

Something Beautiful by Need to Breathe
In your ocean I'm ankle deep
I feel the waves crashing on my feet
It's like I know where I need to be
I can't figure out
No, I can't figure out
Just how much air I will need to breathe
When your wave crashes over me
There's only one way to figure out
Will you let me drown
Will you let me drown

Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire
Cause I just want
Something beautiful to touch me
I know that I'm in reach
I am down on my knees
And waiting for
Something beautiful

And the water is rising quick
And for years I was scared of it
We can't be sure when it will subside
So I won't leave your side
No I can't leave your side

Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire
Cause I just want
Something beautiful to touch me
I know that I'm in reach
I am down on my knees
And waiting for
Something beautiful